HELLO!

♥ Sunday, January 28, 2007♥

finally
i make a decision for myself.. sigh.. i decided to give up.. i shall let it go.. after today nw then i realise hw important i am to him.. YA. =) finally i seen it for sure. hurhur. i did nt cry ! i broke record. i seen the way he treat me. yet i did nt cry though i control. =D wow. tt a miracle. hahaha ! but in my heart i feeling real sad. but who knw. only those who r close will knw hw sad i am when he treat like tt. hurhur. i told myself this time i shall let go. many ppl tell me. hey left 1 week before competition end. why dun u continue to support him till the whole thing is over.. sigh. i scare i dun have the strength to let go if i had to wait till tt day. i shall let go nw isn't it better right ! :) i dun wish to cry for him anymore. i dun wish to let everyone around me to get worry for me.. hurhur.. though my heart is feeling real pain right nw and he doesn't even knw it for sure. WEEE~and he shall nt knw it then.. =)

hurhur! say me silly ba. why am i doing so much for him. in the end he just dun even give a damn to me.. ='( i hate HIM I HATE HIM ! :( i hate him for coming into my life. i hate myself tt i fall into the trap. hurhur... oh well. LETTING GO IS THE BEST WAY I CAN DO RIGHT NW. rah shall be strong ! though i knw it may be difficult. but i shall try. even without him. i gt my dear J3 ! HAHAHHA. I MISS THEM SO SO MUCH ! I MISS JACKY ! I MISS NIQUE! I MISS ALEX! I MISS THOSE DAYS la !! HAHAHA. i wun forget hw jacky was so nice to me.. i wun forget hw alex say those nice words tt make me cry of gan dong. i wun forget hw nique was so nice too. I MISS THEM. =) weee~ hahaha. to me they r more important than anyone else.. dun say it HIM.. sigh.. no matter hw nice he was treating me last time.. J3 was still the nicest one around. and i LUB THEM . hahahahaa ! RAH LUB J3 MANY MANY ! =PPP ok. haha..=D

dun worry.. i am fine ! =) i am nt crying anymore. weee~ =D
love u guys many many !
=D

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