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♥ Friday, February 16, 2007♥

seriously~~~~~
i have totally no mood nw. so better dun irriate me. especially big potato..-.- i think u knw who u r and everyone knw la. let me be straightforward a bit before cny. just wanna frustrate EVERYTHING HERE 1ST BEFORE CNY START.. ROARRR. and big potato. can u dun tag my blog anymore. =.= i feel very irriated? sorry to say . irriate. just dun tag le if possible. dun u ever notice tt everyone tag n u tag. i wun reply u once..unless i really buey tanhan le. so keep away from me for a while can..sigh ~ ROARRR~ wadever la.. i just feel very frustrated. BEST FRIENDS for me.. ya right. but this is my blog. i can write wadever i want k..-.-" boohoo !

anyway i been feeling very frustrated for ppl around me. i wonder after i knw so much friends. which one of them are my excactly true friends tt i wanted. i am not a toy tt can make u all use it for. after playing. u can throw it around n around like a stupid toy being make use of. i am nt a person tt u can be making use of. i knw i am very auntie or wad. very ugly. like shit. but i just simply hate ppl to make use of me. though i already get use to it le. always being make use of. no matter where i am, sian ! i hate ppl to reply me when i talking to them nicely they reply is YA LA, WADEVER LA, CAN LA , YES LA. wad the heck. hw will u feel.. -.- i feel damn irriated by it ok. everytime i try to ren ren ren.. but this time i shou bu liao le. u say u r my gd friend. yet u treat me like shit. ok. nt only to me u talk like tt. BUT I DUN LIKE CAN..-__- can u just once talk nicely. but i dun think so anymore. sigh ~ why am i having such a terrible time. i hate myself totally. typing this. my tears going to fall anytime. dun wish to be so sad when cny is coming. but wad can i do? this is the atticute my friends had been showing me. hw to be nt upset right.. =(

when i hope for a simple reply. no one does reply to me anyway. this means wad? do they still appreciate me for who i am. just care for them. a bit of concern.. ? been trying to do my part as a friend. and seem like my effort had all gone. so maybe i shld just SHUT UP AND KEEP QUIET la. ok. i can do it. the best way la. CLOSE DOWN MY BLOG. then no one will knw hw i feel anymore.. =( if i decide to close this blog. this will be my 2nd blog tt i will be closing. whether to open a new one. it up to me to do so.. i just hate to being use.. IT HURTS K. and it sucks totally. but who cares tt i was being use. everyone just enjoy doing their own stuff tt all.. it ok. i knw and i get use to it le. i hope tt sch will reopen for me soon. want to go back to sch n open a new start. putting away all the past. even those days at mdc for pss2. i wish to let it go.. sigh~ i am tired.. hurhur.. want me to forget them. guess is nt easy at all. but i am contented tt at least one of them will do reply me a bit of msg. to me tt is contented le . at least he will still cares..=) the rest. nah i dun wish to carry on anymore..

i pray tt tml will be a better day for me to celebrate my reunion dinner ! pray hard~ hope my family will all be united as one ba.. tt the most important wish tt would be granted for me. AND AND. i organise a steamboat session with ruoxin n angela. hope things will goes well.. *pray hard* hees..=)
all right. feeling much better after sobbing out all my frustrations, stress, hurts..=)


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